I am closing in quickly on year 47
lately I find myself scrambling for meaning and desperate for that one thing.
I find that in my life it is time to put my knowledge to the test. What good is all the reading, blogging and discussing if when put to the test we do not Believe?
So for me it means a refresh,
for me that means Focus
for me that means deletion on anything non essential
Its about getting very real
Simplicity matters, that is for certain
detachment from emotions matters big time too
selfishness matters too, despite what we are told, taking care of self does matter
I am going to blog this journey for myself as a open journal because if I am going through trials and tribulations I am certain somebody else is as well and perhaps I can help then too, or more than likely they can help me.
Think of all the facts you understand, buy into but truly if tested do not believe…how do you fare on this?
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Not exactly as I would of planned but there nonetheless. Shipped episode 1. Its junk audio with not editing but I did not wish to edit the raw nature of my open mic moment/ revelation that has me more focused than ever.
I need to get better quickly at very easily learned skills
- Recording my own voice
- Utilizing the software
- editing and importing
- all the extras and fancy things will come
as Seth says Drip by Drip
Its Ugly, maybe even FUGLY but its Shipped.
The journey begins.
One year out from Masters Classic Bodybuilding
To quote the iconic band the Clash “should I stay or should I go?, if I go there will be trouble and if I stay it will be double”
We all know it even though it may presently be unnamed
But “it’s complicated”
It is complicated because it isn’t so simple
We need to be very honest with ourselves
As Seth Godin points out, iconic quotes such as “once you learn to quit it becomes a habit” from Vince Lombardi Mislead us
Because there is this thing that Steve Pressfield coined the resistance, that try’s to dissuade us from doing our best work. The work we need to not quit.
Turns out that we need to develop calmness
We need to develop a means to view every project, every job, every endeavor from outside and determine if the struggle we are feeling is worth the pain and emotional energy
What is this thing about?
Turns out learning what to quit and getting really good at quitting is a great thing
If it’s something worth the struggle then we endure the DIP
If not we move on
“Choose a job you love and you will never have to work a day in your life” Chinese Sage Confucius
I was a bad student, bad , like staring out the window bad.
Grade school day dreams
High school planning , strategizing,
About what you ask?
Well much about nothing early in freshman and sophomore years but sometime midway through that second year it happened.
Soft hands met knurled barbell. Rust, humidity, pain and pleasure.
The chisel was placed within my reach by the Muse and it’s been grasped with wide eyed, white knuckles for over 30 years and going strong.
Steve Jobs speaks of working hard and finding our passion. I am blessed as I’ve never had a doubt. My Muse has been sitting beside me my entire life.
But oh how I have forsaken her
But oh how I have tried to be what I assumed more socially acceptable
More seeking to fit in, but Why?
More approval seeking of others than myself.
That’s what has me typing this today.
There is a Quest that I am on. That I have been on and I shall always be on.
There are stories to share
Yet another pivot to this thing I seek to create
Lists upon lists
however I have a different idea
write your morning list
then take 1 thing most important in moving you forward, what is that 1 thing?
write it on a post it note
that checklist you wrote, take your hand
roll it into a ball
place it in the trash
Go do that 1 thing with intent
Versions of oneself
Highs and lows
Fears and aspirations
Hopes and dreams
Anxiety and calm
Love and hate
Smiles and tears
What makes up a life
It isn’t a sprint
It is a marathon
It isn’t speed
It is the perpetual accumulation of knowledge
It is the calm
It is picking your shot
It is acceptance in the fact that it’s a Infinite game
It is ultimately about minimizing complexity and optionality with intent
It is about calm in chaos
It is about less is more
It is about the mere word Intent, doing things with intention
Caring about what matters
Not caring about what does not
It is about love
It is not about infatuation
It is about reality
It is not about delusions
It is about focus
It is about accepting
It is about respecting
It is always about mattering
Not to everyone
Never to everyone
But to really put ourself on the line for someone
It is ultimately about courage
It always come down to Faith
Just a morning ramble
Turns out all this strings together
Makes a life
When we stop
Take a breathe
The whole thing is pretty damn amazing isn’t it
So what is the string you’ll attach today?
Nothing but luv