Self induced anxiety
Yeah, that’s my style! Lol
Not really but the net result actually
So let’s get real
There are some things spinning in my dome that should be addressed
First and foremost is what is it precisely that I want, i.e. Goals?
What are the goals and results that matter truly to me?
Not as simple as it seems because every time I think I have it-the next qualifying question is Why? And is it really something I want or is it to impress and influence status or preserve status ?
So this has to be about simplicity because the fact is there are limitations
As long as we have not successfully added hours to the day we are restricted by 24 hours.
Initially my journey must start with identifying what matters
Initially moving forward means cleaning houseđź‘Šand Eliminating what ultimately does not matter to our achievement of our True Goals
Not what matters to others,the tribe, employers, but what matters to each of us. Just US
So as I lay in front of the seasons first warm fire alongside my daughter as she slumbers I ask myself What Matters? What is the Goal? What would the perfect day(s) look like? Consist of? And what is the change I seek to create?
Something I embraced years ago as part of Renegade training which Coach Davies spoke of with utmost importance , that we condition ourselves in life to not endure CHAOS but to lie in wait of it. To act, to go on the offense in CHAOS that was at the core of the Renegade wheel of conditioning
That unbeknownst to me was the description of being AntiFragile
As a bodybuilder I was a artist, a sculptor however I began to realize that what I sculpted was fragile and would never withstand CHAOS
I learned this through exposure to my closest friends enrollment in the military and seeing first hand that training as we do so often in fitness makes us visually stronger but not really.
Just take a competitive bodybuilder as I was and take away their supplements , skip meals, put them in a unstable environment and just see what happens
– weight loss of dramatic proportions
– major drop in strength
– cognitive drop effecting focus
– immunity drop off
Back then I started to ask questions
These questions haunt me now and require this initiative
So where to start
Start at focusing on these targets below
Thats stage 1
– Intermittent Fasting as a 20/4 split
– limiting and restricting sugars but initially not quality carbs
– basic training –
Day1- body weight and kettlebell
Day 2- Mobility and metabolic work
Day 3- recovery I.e. yoga
Daily meditation is as integral as training for me with hypertension becoming a concern
Daily sleep at minimum 7 hours becoming a focus as well
So I shall begin. In many ways I already have begun. It’s my life. So when friends ask will I ever be onstage again
The answer is I know absolutely I can however I know with fair certainty that it would not be for me, would not be for my family so it would not be
So no
I’d rather creep while they sleep
Stronger Faster leaner healthier and waiting for the moment CHAOS comes
It always does
