Getting cerebral

Self induced anxiety

Yeah, that’s my style! Lol

Not really but the net result actually

So let’s get real

There are some things spinning in my dome that should be addressed

First and foremost is what is it precisely that I want, i.e. Goals?

What are the goals and results that matter truly to me?

Not as simple as it seems because every time I think I have it-the next qualifying question is Why? And is it really something I want or is it to impress and influence status or preserve status ?

So this has to be about simplicity because the fact is there are limitations

As long as we have not successfully added hours to the day we are restricted by 24 hours.

Initially my journey must start with identifying what matters

Initially moving forward means cleaning houseđź‘Šand Eliminating what ultimately does not matter to our achievement of our True Goals

Not what matters to others,the tribe, employers, but what matters to each of us. Just US

So as I lay in front of the seasons first warm fire alongside my daughter as she slumbers I ask myself What Matters? What is the Goal? What would the perfect day(s) look like? Consist of? And what is the change I seek to create?

Something I embraced years ago as part of Renegade training which Coach Davies spoke of with utmost importance , that we condition ourselves in life to not endure CHAOS but to lie in wait of it. To act, to go on the offense in CHAOS that was at the core of the Renegade wheel of conditioning

That unbeknownst to me was the description of being AntiFragile

As a bodybuilder I was a artist, a sculptor however I began to realize that what I sculpted was fragile and would never withstand CHAOS

I learned this through exposure to my closest friends enrollment in the military and seeing first hand that training as we do so often in fitness makes us visually stronger but not really.

Just take a competitive bodybuilder as I was and take away their supplements , skip meals, put them in a unstable environment and just see what happens

– weight loss of dramatic proportions

– major drop in strength

– cognitive drop effecting focus

– immunity drop off

Back then I started to ask questions

These questions haunt me now and require this initiative

So where to start

Start at focusing on these targets below

Thats stage 1

– Intermittent Fasting as a 20/4 split

– limiting and restricting sugars but initially not quality carbs

– basic training –

Day1- body weight and kettlebell

Day 2- Mobility and metabolic work

Day 3- recovery I.e. yoga

Daily meditation is as integral as training for me with hypertension becoming a concern

Daily sleep at minimum 7 hours becoming a focus as well

So I shall begin. In many ways I already have begun. It’s my life. So when friends ask will I ever be onstage again

The answer is I know absolutely I can however I know with fair certainty that it would not be for me, would not be for my family so it would not be

So no

I’d rather creep while they sleep

Stronger Faster leaner healthier and waiting for the moment CHAOS comes

It always does

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Knowledge vs Belief

I am closing in quickly on year 47

lately I find myself scrambling for meaning and desperate for that one thing.

I find that in my life it is time to put my knowledge to the test. What good is all the reading, blogging and discussing if when put to the test we do not Believe?

So for me it means a refresh,

for me that means Focus

for me that means deletion on anything non essential

Its about getting very real

Simplicity matters, that is for certain

detachment from emotions matters big time too

selfishness matters too, despite what we are told, taking care of self does matter

I am going to blog this journey for myself as a open journal because if I am going through trials and tribulations I am certain somebody else is as well and perhaps I can help then too, or more than likely they can help me.

Think of all the facts you understand, buy into but truly if tested do not believe…how do you fare on this?

 

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Episode 1- Rough & Raw “T2 experiment”

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Not exactly as I would of planned but there nonetheless. Shipped episode 1. Its junk audio with not editing but I did not wish to edit the raw nature of my open mic moment/ revelation that has me more focused than ever.

I need to get better quickly at very easily learned skills

  1. Recording my own voice
  2. Utilizing the software
  3. editing and importing
  4. all the extras and fancy things will come

as Seth says Drip by Drip

Its Ugly, maybe even FUGLY but its Shipped.

The journey begins.

One year out from Masters Classic Bodybuilding

#Whateverittakes

Lets Ride!

 

The DIP

To quote the iconic band the Clash “should I stay or should I go?, if I go there will be trouble and if I stay it will be double”

The DIP

We all know it even though it may presently be unnamed

But “it’s complicated”

It is complicated because it isn’t so simple

We need to be very honest with ourselves

As Seth Godin points out, iconic quotes such as “once you learn to quit it becomes a habit” from Vince Lombardi Mislead us

Not always

But sometimes

Because there is this thing that Steve Pressfield coined the resistance, that try’s to dissuade us from doing our best work. The work we need to not quit.

Turns out that we need to develop calmness

We need to develop a means to view every project, every job, every endeavor from outside and determine if the struggle we are feeling is worth the pain and emotional energy

What is this thing about?

Turns out learning what to quit and getting really good at quitting is a great thing

If it’s something worth the struggle then we endure the DIP

If not we move on

Blessed Journey

Choose a job you love and you will never have to work a day in your life” Chinese Sage Confucius

I was a bad student, bad , like staring out the window bad.

Grade school day dreams

High school planning , strategizing,

About what you ask?

Well much about nothing early in freshman and sophomore years but sometime midway through that second year it happened.

Soft hands met knurled barbell. Rust, humidity, pain and pleasure.

The chisel was placed within my reach by the Muse and it’s been grasped with wide eyed, white knuckles for over 30 years and going strong.

Steve Jobs speaks of working hard and finding our passion. I am blessed as I’ve never had a doubt. My Muse has been sitting beside me my entire life.

But oh how I have forsaken her

But oh how I have tried to be what I assumed more socially acceptable

More seeking to fit in, but Why?

More approval seeking of others than myself.

That’s what has me typing this today.

There is a Quest that I am on. That I have been on and I shall always be on.

There are stories to share

People

Places

Memories

Yet another pivot to this thing I seek to create

To “Don’t” list

Organize better

efficiency

Structure

Lists upon lists

however I have a different idea

write your morning list

relax

then take 1 thing most important in moving you forward, what is that 1 thing?

write it on a post it note

that checklist you wrote, take your hand

roll it into a ball

place it in the trash

Go do that 1 thing with intent

repeat

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